Before I started studying Chinese Medicine, it would happen to me all the time with my favorite band- Queen (Brian May rules by the way…):
I’d think about them, turn on the radio, and along came a song by Queen. As though it was especially for me.
Don’t you just love it when that happens?
Ever since I started studying CM, I think about points, talk about points with other people, and then I go to my practitioner/healer and along comes the very same point that was on my mind for so long. This happened recently twice- with Tai Yi- ST23, and with Da Dun- Liv1.
Amazing.

It’s been two weeks or so since I heard Prof. Heiner Fruehauf speak on the Israeli Congress of Chinese Medicine, and I keep thinking about certian parts he talked about.
On the first seminar- “All Diseases Come From The Heart”-  Heiner talked about the Ox, which is the animal associated with the 12th month, which is associated with the Liver organ, is the symbol of the uterus and ovaries.
Therefore, like the Ox, the Liver is the source of all endourness: physically, sexually and emotionally.
And women are a part of all this.
The weakest point for women is also their strongest point, which is blood. And when you talk of blood in CM, you talk primarely about the Liver.
The Ox is a symbol for the uterus and the ovaries, the internal organs of a woman, which have everything to do with smooth flow of blood- whether we’re talking about a woman’s cycle or about pregnancy.

In TCM, we are taught that the emotion of the Liver is anger. That is a bit mis-leading, probably more to do with a meaning that was lost in translation from Chinese to English (and in my case to Hebrew), than anything else.
The Liver has to be powerful in order to do all that it needs to do, but it’s not a sort of anger as it is vigor. When that energy gets stuck- you have anger, which is the force of distruction. But vigor- vigor is good, you need this force to create everything around us.
Toni Morrison wrote the beautiful book “The Bluest Eye“, in which she writes something along the lines of “anger is good. Anger makes you aware of yourself” (my apologies to Toni Morrison for not having the exact quote. If someone has the exact quote please send it over).
This goes wonderfully with the radical of the Liver, which shows a woman with her hands tied behind her back. This had to be very frustrating as women in China took great pride in being able to do so much.  As though when you tie a woman’s hands, she is aware of all the things she can’t do, as she isn’t able to use her hands.
So….. must anger always be bad? Maybe sometimes, when it gets out of hand, it is the force of distruction, but maybe a bit of it is needed every now and then in order to get back to the correct flow of Qi? To get back on track with my Dao?

The second seminar was all about points, and Heiner talked about Da Dun- Liv1.
We said a few things about Liv1, but one thing echoed in my mind- crying is not a woman’s weakness. It is her strength.

5 days after Heiner’s seminars, I had a session with my healer.
I was the happy winner of 2 needles- PC8 and LIV1. I went through the full emotional scale, starting from laughter, through contemplating, 2 bursts of crying and ended this little emotional tour amazed and shocked at what I just went through.
After this session, for the next 5 days, I found myself bursting into tears every now and then, feeling as though it is actually releasing something inside. And it seems like I have a lot of anger to release, as I can feel it for quite some time now.

Hopefully the anger will fade away soon, as it is not in my nature to feel so much anger inside.
Crying is one way to let it go. Another way it maybe look at it, talk about it and analyze it from the Chinese Medicine point of view, because CM makes everything very simple. When things are simple it’s easier to act and change what needs to be changed.